Brain Freeze

I'm dancing on rainbows with pink fluffy unicorns.

No, really.

Pink fluffy unicorns dancing on rainbows~

Pink fluffy...

Okay, I lied.

I'm not dancing with pink fluffy unicorns. I'm doing the lazy chair shuffle to Party Rock anthem. And before you start thinking I've gone mad, I'd better explain why I'm in such a good mood.

Yesterday was probably one of the most special days of my life. In all honesty, I wasn't even sure if my brain computed what happened, but then again you know how I get when I get surprised or something. But yes, I was aware of it, I didn't float off to Olympus like my muse did so don't worry. I'm not that.. er... air-headed like I was five years ago. Though I still do tend to let my thoughts wander sometimes and get a bit lost.... But anyway! Nope, I didn't space out but one thing did happen. My brain froze. It was like that picture perfect moment that's pretty easy to think about, but when it happens, something just... doesn't go the way you expect it to go.

I actually had something pretty sappy in my thoughts, but then again I'm a girl influenced by Vampire Diaries and Gossip Girl, so yeah.

But in any case, I did something I didn't think I would do; I just continued eating my food.... quietly. And why? Because I'd forgotten what I wanted to do. Or wanted to say. Something prepared out the window again, with a frozen brain and thoughts unable to move. Thinking back about it... I feel like hitting my head on the table for not.. er... giving an unlame reply. Blaarrgggh! I just said yes. Okay, so yes does count as a reply, but the way I said it. Aaarrgghh!! The horror! Okay, don't come running over the moment you get this, I'm not going to attempt hitting my head on the wall. The embarrassment just got to me. But I'm diverting, aren't I? I'm diverting. Great.

So what should I have done, I wonder? Perhaps the yes was already good enough, but... what I can't believe is that my brain wiped itself out to leave my blank. I do hear a little devil whispering in my ear to ask to hear those words again, but I'll swat the bugger off my shoulder in a while.

Still... it was meaningful. Here's another page to be bookmarked, and another chapter to be opened. I suppose I'm happy.... which is what you and others would want, but then again, who wouldn't want to be happy? I've got a warm hand to hold, and a back I can lean on and a smile to give. Now I have a place to add to my list of special things, and another memory to pull up and play every time I'm feeling down. Am I content? Yes I am. Grateful? More than you know. Still on Cloud Nine? Since when have I ever come down from there? I'm still that active tomboy everyone knows... but at least I'm no longer alone.

I've finally got someone beside me.

~J